Saturday, December 20, 2014

Reactive Addiction

Just today, I had seen the deepest condition of my heart.   The part that was hidden for a long time and unknowingly sugar coated.  It was unveiled after a long stretched of denials.   I admitted it to myself, I had a "reactive addiction."   I admitted to God that I had nurtured and fed this addiction for a long time.  At first, I was in denial.  I thought, I was right most all of the time.  I thought it was a righteous anger.  Is this real?  I prayed for this first and evaluated myself before sharing it to  Joshua (my husband), to our Pastor and the whole body of Christ (during the early morning service with my husband permission).  I decided to make a decision of breaking the crazy cycle of my reactive addiction (reacting on a certain situation or circumstances based on the first impulse of my emotions omitting the principle of responding in faith in God's words).

Monday, December 15, 2014

Sliding Locks & Safety Catches

I couldn't let this day pass without proclaiming how thankful my heart is for every thing that the Lord, our Yeshua (Jesus in Hebrew)  graciously done to us. 
Quoting what Owald Chambers said, "God will never let you hold a spiritual thing for yourself; it has to be given back to Him that He may make it a blessing to others."

Just the other day while Joshua was outside running some errands, while me stayed at home doing the daily routine while of course taking care of Abigail (our daughter), when the call of nature suddenly struck me (I will try my best not to be so graphical). As a mom of 8 months old very active baby, and so eager to explore the world by crawling, bouncing, standing and placing every thing her hands can grab into her mouth I somewhat master the art of being resourceful without forgetting the safety precautions. 

I placed Abigail's just beside the bathroom opening so it would be easier for me to see her while I used the bathroom.  But the only thing was every time we were in this situation, her first impulse was to pulled-up her self from the seating position and reach out towards the door cabinet under the sink..